I'm sorry for being gone for so long. I made this blog with the intention to be on here all the time, but clearly that didn't work out. Every day I think I might be getting closer to just telling you all who I really am. My real name. My real life. My real struggles... but I can't quite do that yet, and I think that's okay.
The real me isn't extraordinary, but Astrid Clarke is. In my mind, she's a spunky college student who takes no bullshit from anybody. She's happy, but not in a bubbly oblivious sort of way. She writes about werewolves one minute and a perfectly normal world the next and feels no pressure to continue doing one or the other. She doesn't need to be told she's talented because she already knows. She's the first one to tell you if you've got something in your teeth and the last to go home after a hard day of work.
Astrid is perfect. I am not.
I feel like I need this secret identity for more than I created it for. It gives me an escape, a way to not be me for even a little bit, and sometimes that has nothing to do with the content I post on wattpad.
Ha, as if I post anything on wattpad anymore. Neither of my accounts are really active anymore and it feels like pressure of that will drown me. I want to be writing. I want to be posting. Actually, what I really want is to be selling so I can prove to myself that my talents are real and worth something more than just another nameless view on my story - not that nameless views are bad. I love nameless views. Can't get enough of them. I just can't take them to the bank or pay for rent with them.
So yeah, I wasn't sure what to say to you guys after such a long time away. I still don't, really. But it's important to me that you all know that if I had it my way, I would be so much more than I am in this moment. I would upload every day. I would be full of fresh ideas and characters that you could all fall in love with. You wouldn't have to wait forever for the next story because I'd be planning it all out before you could even ask.
It's 2015 now and I managed to post one story back in 2012 and my fanbase is still growing. I can't wrap my head around that. You all have stuck with me for such a long time that I don't even know how to thank you or return the favor. It's amazing to me that my fans are more supportive of me than I am of myself.
Anyways, I hope to become the author I want to be, and the one you deserve. Please continue being patient and hopefully your efforts will be rewarded soon enough.
- The girl you know as Astrid
P.S. did I just make myself sound completely conceited? Or was that okay?
